After this weekend, pulling the Queen of Cups as the card of the day shouldn’t really be a surprise. The message hitting me over and over and over and over is that my lane is one of compassion and caring, that’s how I can serve. When I try to break away from that, when I try to indulge my own baser wants, anything that comes from the lower set of the chakras, that’s when things go sideways. The Queen is both pensive and satisfied. She’s the only queen in the deck that holds her symbol with both hands, she is in total control over the realms of emotion, relationships, and compassion. The tumult below does not concern her any longer.
I have a lot to unpack still from SSC (both emotionally and physically… there’s a lot of laundry), and most of that will not go here, but there was one ritual that’s relevant here. One of the teachers had us think of what she termed the ‘unwise word’ (this was in Welsh and I don’t remember the actual term, but this was the closest translation she gave us). This represented all of the bad things we think about ourselves, all of our bad days, anxieties, everything that doesn’t serve us. This was very easy to come up with for me, as it seemed to be for pretty much everyone in the room at the time. (My word was ‘disgusting’). Then she said the medicine for that was the ‘wise word’ (again, in Welsh) but that the wise word wouldn’t be something we’d come up with on our own, it would be a word we’d hear at some point during the conference. Perhaps something we’d already heard. And right then I understood why on the day before, in a different workshop a woman had come up to me and said completely without prompt or context that I had a very comforting presence. I was utterly baffled at the time, but when the idea of the wise word came up it immediately made sense.
Comforting. The negativity can be quelled by remembering that I can be a comfort to others.
Me being me, I of course turned right around and ignored this, and let myself get into a spiral of anxiety and self-loathing for … reasons.
So seeing the Queen of Cups today, she is not attempting to do anything beyond what she’s in control of, and what she’s in control of is a lot. So I shall try to let that be for myself as well.
