I did two quick three-card pulls and the Queen of Swords showed up twice, so mathematically speaking I’m going to say this is the card for the day. It’s been a long week, long month, long year, and I’m ready to take a look at an obvious sign. The Queens are the aspects of wisdom and influence, and Swords represent mind and intellect, the force of will in the physical realm, and the power of belief. The Queen of Swords is an unbiased judge, one who can not only absorb new information but can react calmly and make decisions based on all the data that has been consumed, not just the story of the moment.
This week I’ve been more consumed than usual by feelings of disgust–at myself, at the world, at work, at everything. I’ve been steeling myself against making rash decisions, against answering baser urges with action. The Queen of Swords here is perhaps a good reminder that dispassionate consideration of circumstances is required right now. Just because I’m pissed at the world doesn’t mean I should set my own life on fire.
The Queen of Swords also represents boundaries and communication. More than usual I’m feeling unheard, and I’m letting boundaries slip in acquiescence. Moments before writing this post I was doing work that should wait for tomorrow, but honestly I did it just to get it out of the way. I’m feeling voiceless so often that even when I do have an opportunity to speak I don’t, and that blended bottle of anxiety and inertia is a damn hard drink to set down.
I’m hoping hoping hoping that I can maintain this. I need something, anything to kick me back into regular action. We’ll see how long this lasts. Just like every time before.
